Today is still a day in waiting.
Responses. Feedback. Agreements and activations.
It is like hearing the thunder on a distance and holding your breath while you wait for the sky to open up and the rain finally come.
It is painfully slow. Never have I been so aware how much I have always depended on my own doings and actions. I don’t trust anything or anyone really by the look of it. Now I have to let other people in. Let them be part of my life. Do their part and trust it is all for the overall good of everybody.
I catch myself not breathing at all or holding my breathe simply forgetting about it.
It is annoying how bad I am at just letting go and let it be.
Breathe, woman, breathe!
I get a glimpse of clarity and then I fall back in the slowness of things again. That is what it feels like anyway. My daughter looks at me seriously and says I am over working it. Again. She is very wise. Always has been. To change her tempo for anyone else has never been her thing.
So let’s focus on the clarity. When I listen and follow my own inner flow scheduling is totally useless. I can’t schedule it at all and it is simply disturbing when I have to stop because of some outer expectation pressing.
I can see every step I need to take and how they add up to the path I am led to take. I am in creativity heaven…and then I need to ground myself again and again.
Earthly commitments and responsibilities.
I like grounding but I don’t like how we so easily attack each other to make things happen faster, better, or our way…we simply attempt to change other people’s paths too much.
Hmm. Need to digest that some more.
Now breathe. In and out and in again.
339 little signals to light. On my way.