Lately I have been putting a lot of effort on a particular part of my work. To the level that yesterday I felt like I was going to cry because I couldn’t come up with anything more I possibly could do…
Then a tiny voice reminded me not to rely everything on myself.
Walk away. Take a walk literally. Trust your efforts.
Anxiety left, but now I sit here again staring at it like some new planted seeds, which hasn’t started to show up yet. Like I could speed up the processes by keeping looking at it.
Now it is time to let the process process. The cake to bake. The seed to crack and grow – by itself.
So what do you do when the cake is in the oven? When the tree is nurturing its fruit? The baby growing?
Take care of myself. Keep busy with something else. Intentionally distract myself if need be. Enjoying the down time.
I assume crying like that is the same as when you run a race and throw up in the end. You give it your all and a bit more. Completely turning yourself inside out…
I never thought much about the throwing up, so why about the crying?
It is just telling me I did gave it my all – just as I set out to do – and that is all I can do.
Now it is time to move on. Do the – next – right – thing.
I’m fine. All is well. I am on my way. 340 signals to go.
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