There comes a point when sitting still with discomfort suddenly doesn’t feel as if it is enough anymore. From deep within comes the an urge break through something and shake things up a bit…
There comes a point when sitting still with discomfort suddenly doesn’t feel as if it is enough anymore. From deep within comes the an urge break through something and shake things up a bit.
This is where I have arrived now. The ball is put into motion and can’t be stopped any longer. Without thinking it takes me along on its own journey. before I used to schedule all my have tos, but not anymore. Somehow they are sneaking themselves in higher and higher up – as if it has become a game to bust them all together.
This week I could give myself a high five for, after ten years of official absence, being a paid professional writer again. One should never underestimate the feeling of a work well done. It makes you want more no matter if it is more clients, know new people, mastery of some sort or simply just to really genuinely connect.
I surprise myself by even go back and dig for rejections, just to ensure I picked up on all small points to improve, as well as taking in what was said enough to notice the majority is actually positive. Very positive even.
And neither even feels bad.
It just helps me to see clearly were to go deeper and niche in.
From a long life of people please and trying to be there for everything and everybody it is a breath of fresh air to be able to distinctively say I am this and you are that. We can like each other – but from a far. We DO NOT belong together, so let’s not even try. Hallelujah.
I don’t know how it happened, but it just shifted. I can notice the discomfort – and move on to my own path.
Despite the discomfort I am moving forward.
Finding my way home. 302 signals to go.
Every day I manage to add something new to my schedule. I don’t know what I was doing before, but more and more is being done and I even have time over…
Every day I manage to add something new to my schedule. I don’t know what I was doing before, but more and more is being done and I even have time over.
Yes, there are some things I still avoid, but I know I will get also there eventually and it is okay it is not today.
I made myself a little schedule and we do our best to keep it. Taking in to consideration;
- I don’t concentrate well after 2 hours without a break – preferably not sitting down.
- I am at my best with 8 hours sleep.
- I have a note pad to jot down ideas and thoughts for later when I am actually considering ideas and are not working.
- I have a little list with an order of priority – in case I loose myself into something I shouldn’t.
- I have scheduled time for time with my animals and kids.
And I have mapped out the next 3 steps work-wise and a vision where I am heading.
Because I suffered from being such a fixer i have to watch myself not to cut corners or do things on a whim. Nothing.
This is resetting life taking every step, not jumping a single one.
Ironically I learned to enjoy it. Some steps are painful and I have to really ground myself not to skip over them. Just stay in it and ask myself questions and surrender.
Surrender to the whole I-simply-got-it-wrong.
Step by step I will get things on the right track and if it takes time it doesn’t matter. I am doing it my own way now.
306 signals to go.